Two Things That Almost Broke My Heart

Addie has become quite the conversationalist lately.  It is really quite fun talking with her. With her new found abilities to convey her thoughts we have gotten sweet glimpses of her heart, her compassion and feelings.  It is so beautiful and sweet!

A few weeks ago I took her and Elias to a midwife appointment. Before leaving I said, "We are going to the midwives to hear our new baby!"  She got a very troubled look on her face and said, "Mommy, I don't want a new baby..."  I was confused about this because up until then she has showed nothing but excitement about a new brother or sister, so I asked her why she didn't want a new baby.  She said with the same troubled look and seriousness, "I don't want a new baby, I want to keep Elias." It was then I understood, she thought we were getting rid of Elias in order to get the "new baby." I nearly cried! 

Then today I was snuggling her before her nap. She looked at me and said, "Mommy, will you always be here?" I wasn't sure what she meant, in bed snuggling or what. So I said, "What do you mean?"  She replied, "Will you always be my mommy? Will you go away? You are the sweetest Mommy I ever loved!"  Again, my heart almost broke!  Of course! Of course!